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maybe today isn't a good day.  i thought it was...it seemed okay when i crawled outta bed this morning....

I'm a little overwhelmed with emotions today...
We got an invite to go sledding with Britney & Adam saturday night at 7pm.  I didn't want Trenten in the night air because I've been hearing him cough at night and it was only a high of 20 degrees yesterday.  I thought Curt would've said the same thing...but he said yeah we can make it.  After he says that he asks me if something is wrong with trenten because britney said i just told her he was sick.  Later in his texts to her he says...wish i could come by myself, sounds fun.    why does he never wanna do anything fun with me....

He said NOTHING to me about talking to her....nothing about texting her that he wished he could go....i had to look thru his phone to find out he wanted to go without us because trenten couldn't be out at night.  maybe that's the sacrifice i have to make for a while.....maybe I have to sit at home while he goes and does whatever he wants.   He knows that I have nobody to go and hang out with....and we dont have the money.  Girls don't go fishing....i cant think of one thing that girls can do for free besides hang out at home.   

I just wanna cry today.....I'm not exactly sure why.  But I'm sad.  I want him to suggest things....I want him to wanna have fun with me but apparently I'm the problem...and I'm the bitch....and I'm this....I'm that.  what is happening.....................